Paraphernalia
A single glimpse of the photograph rekindled a thousand emotions. The memories were of a distant time, but came back as fresh as if they had been played out just an hour before. The old image was printed in faded black and white but the vivid colours in his mind’s eye transformed his recollections into a real-time newsreel. Frame by frame, the talking pictures came into focus.
The young woman cradled the boy in her arms, gazing into his wide eyes. Her own expression was filled with the unique pride of a new and doting parent. In the background, the garden was in full bloom. At that moment, it had fallen into a tranquil slumber. The gentle lilt of birds chattering and warbling in the summer breeze provided an original soundtrack to a very English country idyll. For him, her captivating smile completed the perfect portrait as the clunk of the shutter captured it for posterity.
“That’s a beautiful shot, you two” said the photographer.
“Now, it’s my turn for a change. Here, have a go with the camera. Take one of us together.”
He placed the hefty brown Kodak box onto the stone wall next to her. Nervously, he transferred their first-born into his hands. The child gripped firmly onto his little finger as he offered it towards the miniature pink palm of the baby’s hand. The new photographer clicked the shutter once more.
At that moment, an unbreakable bond was cemented. A surge of electricity tingled across his back and neck before the charge rushed through his whole being. He was excited and nervous about the future in equal measure. Within seconds, a stark reality had gate-crashed his party in paradise. An uneasy trepidation filled his thoughts once more. In the weeks and months ahead, life would inevitably become more precarious and precious in equal measure.
His wife returned to his side and kissed him tenderly on the cheek. Her words were reassuring and comforting.
“Don’t worry about us - we’ll be here when you get back” she whispered.
She kissed him again. With that, he rose to his feet, taking extra care with his precious cargo. Their slow meander around the garden included their first proper one to one conversation. After all, talking man to man was what fathers and sons did. This time, there was to be more billing and cooing alongside the deep and meaningful.
Despite the language barrier, he was sure that he had translated this new “baby speak” word for word. Although it was only six weeks since his son had taken his first breath, he reasoned that it was never too early for a father to bed in some foundations to build from. Hopes and dreams mixed with promises and schemes floated on the breeze. Soon, the baby closed his eyes.
His father contented himself with the thought that his son had understood the messages and needed some thinking time to digest them fully. He dismissed the logical conclusion that the child had fallen asleep, comforted solely by the security of his cradling. No … his words HAD been understood.
The camera lay unused on the wall as he opened the door to leave. There seemed little more to say.
“I’ll be back as soon as I can” emerged with characteristic tenderness.
He looked down once more at the child, now safely back in his mother’s arms. He lowered his voice to a barely audible murmur.
“Be a good boy for Mum, now won’t you, son.”
He moved his gaze towards his wife once more.
“I will look after myself, I promise”
His final words were for his baby boy
“Can you see the little birds? Look!”
Those were the only other lines he could remember being spoken before the final snapshot - a man gently extricating himself from a last goodbye. A check of his pocket watch showed that there was no more time to linger. Framed by their front porch, the closing scene was captured in his memory with the
lingering release of his wife’s hand at its heart. A kiss onto his own fingers was transferred to the boy’s head and then he was gone.
Suddenly, the newsreel ran out and it was over.
The memories were never far away from the surface but he only replayed the full story on special days. That day was one such day. Leslie Oxley wore his best suit for the occasion. HIs visitor was hugely impressed at the result.
“She would definitely still think you were Hollywood potential, papa. Who was her favourite heart throb again?”
A spontaneous grin of satisfaction spread across Leslie’s features, snapping him out of his bubble of nostalgia. Revealing Joseph Cotton as the man in question appeared to mean little to the young man. With more than a degree of reverence, he quietly placed the photograph face down onto the table before rummaging through the old shoe box for more memories… more “paraphernalia”, as he affectionately called it.
His eyes seemed to moisten as they focussed again on the past. Carefully unfolding the small piece of newsprint, he read it to himself slowly and without emotion. The brown ageing of the cutting had not faded the type. It was though badly creased and vulnerable to irreparable damage. He opened the palms of both hands to carefully cradle it once more.
He handed the piece of paper to his great-grandson who in turn retrieved the content with an unexpected trepidation. He already knew the bare facts of the story. Even so, the act of receiving the news from a central character in the original plot packed a powerful punch.
The headline was short and stark, the text was matter-of-fact.
LATEST BLITZ VICTIMS NAMED.
Following identification yesterday, the deaths have been announced of Mrs J Oxley, aged 27 years, of Rectory Cottage, Ford Street and Master M Oxley, aged 7 months, also of Rectory Cottage, Ford Street. Both were killed when an incendiary broke through the roof of the property last Thursday, 14th November. All of their relatives have been informed.
The teenager raised his head and breathed a heavy sigh. Replacing the item into Leslie’s hand, their faces showed equal recognition for the other’s pain.
Leslie manoeuvred his wheelchair towards the open window. Looking out into the daylight, the November gods had been kind. In the distance, the sea was flat calm. Returning to the mirror in the sitting room, he adjusted the knot on his tie and realigned the row of medals fixed beneath his lapel. He spoke with a fierce pride and sense of responsibility for the occasion.
“Always like to look my best, bud. Can we get going now?”
Their passage down to the village green from Rectory Cottage was serene. The crisp frostiness of the morning had deterred other locals from venturing outside. Pausing at the stone memorial, L/Cpl 71642 Oxley L scanned the inscriptions. As it always did, his gaze searched for the names of Netherton J and Palmer A. It soon locked onto its targets.
He gestured for his young companion to look towards the monument.
“Still no names on there that begin with the letter “O”, bud!”
A wry smile belied his true emotions. Guilt and embarrassment were an unjustified weight on a proud man’s shoulders. He had carried them stoically over the many decades since they had first shown their face. A perfectly executed salute towards the invisible recipients signalled his departure from the scene.
Together, the Oxleys moved in silence through the village and down towards the shoreline.
The beach was deserted and beautiful. At the end of the lane, a short jetty jutted out into the sea. Still largely unruffled, it gently lapped against the breakwater. The pair arrived at the end of the walkway.
“Just pop the brakes on, soldier“.
The escort obliged and reached down beneath the chair to retrieve the flowers. Like him, they were sheltered from the cold in their protective wrapping. As delicately as if they too were new born, he handed them to the elder statesman. Their red petals vivid in the watery sunlight, the old soldier
placed the two roses lovingly onto his lap. Turning to look along the sand, he surveyed what was, in his world, was the very best of nature. He had visited other beaches in his life, had crawled on them, had run in fear along them and had lain injured on them. This though was where he had found true personal contentment and stillness of heart.
First one and then the other, he took the flowers and set them on their voyage. Their inbuilt parachutes produced a landing on the surface as textbook as his own had been so many times before. Uninjured and ready for their journey, they began to float away.
As the pair looked on, the flowers came together as if to join forces before setting off toward the horizon on the retreating tide. Leslie dabbed at his eye to wipe away a tear. His escort did the same. Moments later, they too began their return journey to the warmth of a fireside.
As they finished their lunch, the old shoe box still sat on the table.
“There’s something else you should see,” said the old man, removing the lid once more. Reaching inside, he grasped his intended target and replaced the top.
“Take this and look after it, will you, bud,” he said, with more emphasis than usual.
A small brass key nestled in the young man’s hand. Leslie closed the boy’s fingers around it.
“I want you to take this to the bank in town when I am gone but not before. The contents of the box that it opens are yours”
A curiosity to know more details of the request subsided. A simple “Of course I will “was followed by a mutual squeezing of hands. Another unbreakable bond had been made, this time 70 years on.
It was almost three years later to the day that the statue was unveiled. Cast in bronze, the marching figure of a soldier stood proudly in the centre of the village. Set on a small plot of its own, it nestled neatly into its new home next to the stone memorial. The publicity for the ceremony had brought local people out in force, along with dignitaries from far and wide. The formalities
began with a short speech. A young man stood tall and spoke in a clear, confident tone.
“It gives me great pleasure and satisfaction to welcome you all here today to celebrate the life and courage of Leslie Oxley. As his great-grandson, I am proud to unveil this wonderful tribute and to represent not just our family but all of those who made the ultimate sacrifice for our freedom.
The inscription ‘For Valour’ is short and rarely awarded. It was written on the cross which provided the funds for this permanent symbol of recognition and thanks to Leslie. The fact that he kept this achievement private until his passing was typical of his modesty and selflessness. His own long life was lived alongside so many of his family and friends but without those who he believed were more deserving than he was. The burden of guilt that he carried weighed heavily upon him but his deeds will never be forgotten. His legacy will live on.”
Light bulbs flashed and a photograph of the soldier with his youngest family member was finally taken on home soil.
Soon, the applause had died away and the handshakes were over. John Oxley moved unseen down to the jetty at the end of the lane. His walk to the water’s edge was military in its precision of stride. Coming slowly to a halt, he stood to attention. Looking out to sea, he cast three red roses into the surf. He too had entered into a lifetime commitment. It was in his blood now.
Once again, the beach was deserted and peaceful .Glancing across to his right, he thought he saw someone who looked like Joseph Cotton with his leading lady. As they walked hand in hand carrying their little boy, they paused briefly before disappearing into the gathering mist.
For now, they were gone but it seemed to the spectator that they had all found their true home again …
… together.
COPYRIGHT John Latham 2019